Helping Through the Grief

Death is one thing we are never prepared to deal with...

i lost someone very close to me, she was the sweetest girl. Elizabeth was her name but we called her Kagure, she was only fourteen when she passed away.
It was July 9Th 2004, she complained that she was having chest pains, we decided, to go to the hospital,...as we waited for a the doctor, she looked at me and smiled, i told her she'd be okay, that it was nothing serious. She asked whether she looked beautiful i told her she did, she always did..she smiled and said OK, then she looked at me again, little did i know she was saying goodbye, she slept on my lap, told me the pain was too much...she then closed her eyes and that was it... Just like that, i could do nothing to bring her back...She was gone, the funniest girl in our family was no more, she had lived her life so well...she loved laughing, and no matter how mad she made you, you'd smile..i have never really gotten over her death...it's hard to believe she isn't coming back, that she is really gone...But she is in a better place, the night before she died, she kept praying asking God to guide and help us all, guess she knew she was going...Rest in peace dear, and you will always be in my heart....we loved and love you but God loved you more and he had a better plan...Fly Angel....

Life is Short and at times its unfair...but we have to live and hope for a better day...

Don't hold grudges and negativity

Heart Breaker.....

Its been a while since i drafted something...today is one of those days when i feel like typing. The only thing is am blank.....my Girlfriend has asked me to write something on heart breakers...ha ha...guess she has something against men...

What can i say...Most of us have experienced heartbreaks...and those who haven't please start living....
Love is Magical the only problem is when you get a bad magician who turns the moment to an awful experience. I have met good magicians but along the way they turn against you, yet most of us cling to them with the hope that the magical moment will come back.

Am also stuck with one, i try walking away but i always turn back with the hope that my heart will love the magic...i guess ma girlfriend is also stuck like me....trying so hard to walk away yet a force so strong pulls us back....it could be the touch, the smile or the lovemaking....mmm.....I guess i believed in the Cinderella stories, they have brainwashed me so well...that i still believe i will get ma prince Charming who will fill my life with Magic...

As for my girlfriend....Girl, the heart breaker will always be around....ready to woo you with his magic Wand....

Memories

Yesterday i was watching some kids play and i realised how times have changed....
Growing up in Mathare i still have the best memories....going for a swim at (Kita)...ha ha that was a river near Utalii...the swim was a must....we didn't have the luxury of going to a cleaner swimming pool....but they were the best moments...

Then there was Kalongo or cha baba na cha mama...All girls wanted to be mothers and since i was short i was always the baby...Damn i didn't have a chance to have my childhood crush as my Hubby..ha ha...but the experince taught us how to be good mothers...

Sinya Gondi was my favourite....going after the bad boys.....its sad that most of the guyz who were acting as bad boys turned out to be real thieves...guess the game brought out our personalities...

We didn't have computer games then and most of our days were spent trying to come up with new games no wonder our generation is more creative...ha ha all in all i we have the best childmoods...

Lets Play Pretend

I play pretend with my heart and for a minute am happy,
I pretend that you really care and I might be your woman,
Lets play pretend and make my heart smile for a minute,
I want to pretend, laugh, love just for another minute or so,
I want you to play along just make me forget just for a minute,
I almost forgot we are pretending and that you really don't care,
I hope you are pretending not to care because when I look at you,
Your eyes tell a different story I just hope what I see is love,
For that minute I was happy and I hope we will play again.

Why Mapenzi Matamu

People ask why am obssesed with using Mapenzi Matamu in all my mails? and am like why not Mapenzi Matamu (Sweet Love)...

I love Bongo Music.. and when i first heard Ray C sing about Mapenzi Matamu...i knew thats the the line i will be using...it will be my signature...Now that i have cleared the mapenzi matamu bit i can breath easy (Lol)..

Talking about love brings a smile to my face coz everyone has a story to tell and when am having a chat with my girlfriends Love is always on the agenda.... guess we were all born to love.
The other day i was listnening to a song by Kenny Rogers (I love Country music), the song title was "Love don't leave here anymore" and i related to the song. Attimes we all go through that phase, where someone you love hurts you, could be a friend, family member or a boyfriend you just feel let down. At the end of the day its love that brings a smile to your face...Any time i feel that love has gone sour i write and write even its nothing special...it does magic.....like am doing right now.......